A lot of questions but no answer

Today is May 12. I have just come back home from my school. I feel sad and a lot of questions in my mind. Today I had the presiontation for pronunciation class. One of my friends in my class standed in front of class with her article is " Love". She said that when she said Love, everyone just thought romantic (man and woman). However, love is global. Love is relationships between members of family, friends, male and female. She said that the big love was family. Now she lives far from her parent. She knew what is love. She miss her family so much, especaily is her mother. She cried a lot. In that time, I felt sad and I wanted to cry more and more with her because I would feel better, but I couldn't. I had to keep my sadness in my heart. It's very hurt.
Nowadays, I don't know I decided to study in the U.S. and left my old parent in my country to find a good future for me after having certificate is good or bad. Before I came here, some my friends didn't agree with my decision. They said that " You are a crazy and stupid person ,and ice person. Your parent love you so much, and you will inherite their property." With me, I never think about property. I just want to have a good knowlege to looking for a good job ,and don't want to depend on my parent. But my everything is theirs. Because I will not have any chances to study in America if my parent don't have money. Now my mum is bronken arm and my dad has just got over the dangerous heart operation. Nobody looks after them because they have only two children (my sister and I) .When my father was in hospital, he said to my mum " Don't tell our son if I can't come over. Let him feel happy to study." I heart the sentences from my sister (she lives in the U.S with her husband) after my father had felt good. She want me to come back Vietnam to take care of them. I felt sad and hurt. But I can not cry because of my decision. Sometimes I asked myself " Do you think you chose a good way?" , and I answered "I don't know". "I just think simply everyone is a ship. Ship will face with storms in the ocean when it wants to sail to good places for parking." Do you think I am selfish? I just think about myself. Every country has differrent culture. Parents' repondsibility in the U.S takes care of their children when their children are enough 18. However, in Asia and especially in my country. Parent always look after their children when they still live. For example, my friend asked another partner in IBT TOFLE class " If you must choose between your wife and your mother, who will you choose?" He answered " Mother", "Because I can find another wife but i can't find my mum." My IBT teacher said " When American person is under 18, he says that he will choose mum because he still need money. But when he was 18, he will answer wife. Because wife lives with him is longer than mother and has children with him." That's why every children in every country feel their parents' love are different. I have a lot of questions " What will I do? Do I continue catching my ambition or come back hometown to take care of my parent?" I know these are my biggest questions in my life. Nobody has the answers for me. I am the only person is able to find answers for me. Because these big questions depend on me and time. I question myself " Do you make sure If you choose ambition, you will be successful? Will you repent? I just answer " Time answers me." Because every parent want their children to be happy and succesful in the future. "If you choose come back, you will loose your future but you don't repent."

#16

In this spring semester, about my writing i can't improve. Although this semester my teacher gave a good idea about writing something on blog. I can use my brainstorm to write and don't care about making mistake grammar, composition ( introduction, body, conclusion). It is useful for me because English is my second language not mother langague. My words limited. But in my composition class. I think really hard for me to write an essay not thinking by my mother language and translate to English because some articles are difficult and i must use my own langue to tranlate. Addition about my translated sentences do not mean as Amecian sentences. I need my teacher to guide me how to correct the sentences. When readers read, can understand my writing. I know this class is composition not gramma. However, from them I can inprove my writing. Everyone on their life has mistakes. And from experiecing mistakes they can develop. I don't know about my teacher's feeling when he/she reads this. But if they think that they don't satisfy with this. I am Sorry Sorry Sorry. My country has sentence " Medicine is not sweet but good for health. Truth will make angry to people."